If I don’t get what I want, I’ll make sure you won’t get yours.. If you don’t understand how this works, I’ll make you understand.

The lost of a good friend has kinda forced me to ramble on my tumblr instead…

I’ve never really reflected on 2012 because I felt like I still had a lot of backlog from last year that I had to finish before I could really feel the “New Year 2013”.

My best and closest friends were busy with their own life and relationships they weren’t really involved much in my life as I wish they would. However this has given me much time to explore and really take much matters into my own hands and because of this I believed I have matured significantly compared 2011.

Matured… I believe there is no right time to use the word matured unless compared in years… I don’t think I’m matured, I don’t think of myself as very great. I believe I have worked hard, and I believe others would have done better if they put just a tiny weenie bit of effort. I know this because I know others are way ahead of me and they don’t even need to try.

But that’s not the point.. Becoming better is never the point. I find the most pleasant people to hang around with are people who are happy with themselves. Who are not insecure.

Insecurity doesn’t necessarily always exist in ugly people, I’ve personally met an “up there” person who was insecure about herself. The thing is… no matter what kind of person you are.. poor or posh.. insecurity is an ugly trait. Specifically for this posh person, it’s because of insecurity that she tries to engineer every single situation to her favour. And it will lead to backstabbing.

There is no sincerity in cunning. I don’t care how socially popular you are, any normal happy person is definitely emotionally stronger than you, you are the real loser here.

Many twitter followers, being in the center of “the” social circle may attribute to your high ego. But your constant tweeting of “Attention seekers, social climbers everywhere” just exposes your insecurity to us. Not very convincing….

Aside from that, I have recently met a lot of decent people and I’m always glad to see happy faces especially new ones.

Ok this is really not a summary of 2012 but it’s just what I’ve learned. Just be natural…. fake bitches get away from me I can’t stand phoniness.

There’s just some cold hard facts you can never change, and there’s someone who will break all these illusions you made to hide these facts.

Nearing the end of my poly life, things are getting more and more serious everyday.

Am I supposed to carry the weight of what the adults are trying to impose on me? I believe mundane life kinda defeats the purpose of actually living, unless you are actually doing it for someone or a good purpose.

I never wanna become an office slave, but it kinda seems inevitable and I can see why weekends are so valuable now. I hope at least I can find some meaning in it if I do become one.

But still long way la ok.

People who make me sad should suffer the consequences.

I really liked the photo I took with Nikki on my birthday hehe.

nothing can be better than a sincere photo.

Maybe I should stop using Twitter. It feels really foreign like I don’t have relevance to it anymore. So where do I go from here?